Its ME! Blogging

Ahahahahha….i’m so happy. I know I’m still cant get over it and move on. I know I should act more adult? But whatever!!

An ex-colleague called just now and told me a story about this one-particular-person-that-I-despise-the-most. And I cant stop smiling since then eventhough she didn’t managed to finish the whole story due to unknown reason which required her to put down the phone. Must be this one-particular-person-that-I-despise-the-most’s best friend a.k.a her bos is around. Hehehe…

Anyways, Obama is the next president of United States. For no specific reason, I’m so happy. No not because his father is actually a Muslim (because I don’t really know his father actually born as a Muslim), and not because he once lived in Asia. Maybe because he looks nice and I just want to see how the Americans react or how far they can accept a half African-American as their president. I also hope that with his multiracial background he could change how we look at America and how they look at us, the Muslims. And the biggest hope should be PEACE NO WAR!

On the other notes, Emelda has grown smarter each day. She speaks very well these days and we can actually communicate with her (meaning that we can ask simple question and she can answer bag, correctly!). According to most people (mainly orang2 tue or specifically my inlaws and my own mother) kids her age can hardly speak so fluent like her considering she’s only 1 year and 7 month. Alhamdulillah… I would like to list down each and every word (or vocabs) that she has learned but since there’re too many, I shall not. Or maybe a few:

Dedek (she call herself dedek as adik) nak nom air dodok (while pointing at the sofa)
(adik nak minum air sambil duduk)

Nak tottt
(nak ikut)

Dedek nak pa… dedek nak aik planeeee
(adik nak selipar adik nak naik plane – mesen masuk 50sen with lagu2 at family store)

The best part is when she calls my name:
Mummy…owhhhh Mummy…..
It sounds sooo…melting.

And when we call her name and she’s in a good mood, she will reply ‘sayeeee’..

Nenek nak andi
(Nenek nak mandi)

And ade la banyak lagi yang tak berape nak kuase tulis kat sini.

Anyways on the other notes note, I’m 2 months pregnant. No wonder Emelda acted weird after my Raya leave. She was down with high fever on the last day of my Raya leave, and since then, she always crying and screaming for no reason (sometimes there’s a reason la like she wanted to go out playing ke ape) but she never acted like that. Crying like mad. And then even when I wanted to breastfeed her she refused. Like she never say no to breastmilk! Until one stage, I thought she kene sampuk ke ape because we went jalan-jalan to many places during raya. From Kuala Selangor to Bukit Melawati to see beruk to Melala to Zoo Melaka to Kuala Pilah and so on. But I didn’t go to dukun or whatsoever but still I did bace ayat-ayat Al-Quran whenever she cried like that. Risau jugak coz like I said, she’s not that kind of kiddo! And after a while, I realized she’s actually getting cleverer coz she knows now what she wants and being more demanding than ever. I think, she knows that when she cried and screamed like that, she could get whatever she wants. So there it goes, the hyper dramatic queen. But she’s better now other than the screaming part. She knows that I’m carrying a baby inside, I told her so. And when I ask where’s the baby she will point to my stomach and when I asked her to kiss the baby, she never refused. I hope she could be a good kakak.

But, sometimes I feel so sad. I don’t know whether I could divide my love for her and the baby later. Its so sad if she has to turn to someone else when she needs attention and I’m busy with the new baby. And how can I layan both when with only her around sometimes I tend to be too tired and too busy with other things ended up the other family members have to layan her. I feel like its so unfair, coz I only spend like few hours with her daily. Its sad that I cant really see her grow up every hours. And soon enough, I have to stop breastfeeding her, her most favorite activity. Hmm…

Moving on, I really wanted to blog about my raya and put tons of pictures but well, I got no time (yeah rite) to blog so much. Since I’m so excited on the news that my friend told me about, it has triggered my kerajinan to blog again, after a long hiatus..

Till then peeps, (if there’s any) tata!!