Its ME! Blogging

In my first entry, I said this blog is dedicated to my Lil'gem and that most of the entries will be just about her. But now it seems like its more about my circle of life and its so unfair for her! ;pp

So this time around I will write all about her.. but I dont know where to start.

Ermm.. ok currently she's 1yr 3mnts & 5 days to be exact. She can speak quite alot of words and she actually can reply whenever we talk to her like:

Adik nak susu? = Nak
Adik tunggu sini, mummy buat susu ok? = Okkkkkk (with smile and her pelat)
Adik nak mandi? = Nak (sambil tarik baju)
Name adik ape? = Dada
Umur adik berape? = Satuuuuuu (with long pout lips)

Her favorite show is the Shana's Show and also Barney and since her cousin Alyssa is the biggest fan of Ultraman, she now also happy to watch all the aliens fight, erk! Its too violent for her I think but its ok is it?

Then now I want to list down words she can speak as todate:

1. Embah (she can call her embah since she's 9 month old)
2. Nenek (as for both side nenek)
3. Ayah
4. Mummy (meme)
5. Ibu (my sister)
6. Dok yu (my lil sister)
7. Paklong & Maklong (both pronounce like this - Onyong, hehe ok la tu kan?)
8. Kak Lisa (cha)
9. Kak Liya (ya)
10.Susu (cucu)
11.Bak (when she wants her breast milk-her favorite word amongst all hehehe)
12.Taknak (nanak)
13.Jom
14.Habis (besshhh)
15.Bird (ba)
16.Cicak (cak)
17.Dog (dog - baru pagi tadi die pandai sebut)
18.Fish (pish)
19.I love you (nyo youuu ???)
20.Bye & tata (pronounced perfectly ;)
21.Baby (bebe)

I think thats all or maybe there's more I'll add up if I remember.

She can also sing All McDonald song (the e i e i ooo part), Rumah Nenek Nak Roboh, I love you (the Barney song), Saya Teko Kecil, Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, Ba Ba Blacksheep, Satu Labah Labah, The Shana's Show song and some other that I cant really recall right now and she actually follow my singing and sing part of the songs that she knows only la.. cant expect much right since she's only 15months old.

When it comes to eat medicine, she can scream like the highest note even Ning Baizura cant beat it. She will cry as though we beat her but one thing good, she dont know how to throw out the medicine from her mouth, so she will swallow it whether she like it or not huhuhu...

I cant think right at the moment. Will continue later about this little gem!

Apparently the house that we bought has been abandoned for about 2 years. The only thing that we can do is form a committee between the purchasers and report to the ministry of housing & local government but there are only like 10 purchasers including the 3 units that the agent himself bought, but lucky him because he dont have to pay a penny as #1 - He's an agent, #2 - The developer initially required him for some consultancy so he got the benefit not to release the loan until the house been completed. Its even worse that we know non of the purchasers except for the agent so we are unable to form the committee.

We bought the house when we were about to get married. The initial plan was we will stay with hubby's parents for a year or so and when the house completed we will move out. But pity us, the house has been abandoned.

I have no problem to stay together with in laws and yes people said its better to live separately with the in law for privacy adn also to avoid any uncalled situation with them but I have a great inlaws. MIL & FIL are the greatest. Along & K. Long also a simple and funny people. Of course there are ups & downs but life's like that. There's no life without it. And of course its a tiny house but we are happy in it. Honestly if they are not around, it will be very quiet. MIL & FIL are great, we can talk about many things and they are very open minded. I feel blessed to be part of the family. So, moral of teh story go & stay with your inlaws! ;p

On the other notes that is totally out of the abovementioned topic, English subtitles at RTM1,2 and TV3 is so annoying. I know my English is like 5 out of 10? or maybe less. I know my vocabs, grammar sume berterabur macam kambing baru lepas kandang but dont you found it annoying??? Its so wrong, I will write here if I can remember one. Even myself yg x master English ni pun found it funny and stupid what more people out there who are very good in English. I'm sure you are irritated as me. Tu yang akak malas nk tengok drama swasta tu. Dah la jalan cerita kadang2 macam tak relevant but I admit some of them are good. Cume bende-bende camni buat akak rase macam tolongla, takkan la orang yang keje kat TV tu semua tak pandai cakap orang putih dengan betul?? Kalau tak jangan la letak English subtitle kat bawah tu. Ishhh...the more I write the more sakit hati akak ni ha. Dear Dato' Sri Farid Ridzuan, do something about it will u???

Today Kay turned 27th and I would like to wish her

I send Lil'gem to my mum's house today as my sister's going to visit Ayit in Melaka. Kesian mak, dah la si kecik tu dah semangat skarang ni. Mesti penat nk mengejar die.

Father's day is on the 15th. The other day I saw someone and he reminds me of my late father and suddenly I cried. I really missed him. Even writing this makes me wanna cry. Father died in 1999 when I was 18 due to something that I wont talk about here and it was a sudden death. We dont prepare for that.

The last time I saw him was the night before he passed away. I slept at my sister's house on that day and he did some 'air tawar' for my sis' eldest boy coz he was coughing for quite sometimes and the prescription that the doctor gave doesnt make any different. He was explaining to me on what to do with the water, he told me to asked my nephew to drink a bit and the rest to rub on his face while I was looking at the other side listening to I cant really remember what. He was a bit upset and asked me to listen carefully to what he wants to say. Me being stupid and rude making face infront of him but not that rude just showing that I'm not very happy with his remark and start concentrating on his explanation.

Then off I went to my sis' house. But I still remember I looked at him until he disappeared from my sight. I still remember that last vision of him and it stays till now. I feel so regret until one day about a week after he died I dream of him and I hug him asking for forgiveness and that I missed him terribly and that I love him so much. He didnt say anything but I think I felt like he said its ok. I also asked him 'sakit tak bah' and I cant remember if he answers me I think he didnt. When I woke up I still can feel the tears and I continued crying until I fell asleep. After that I feel much better as though he has forgiven me for what ever wrong things that I've done. But the feeling of regretfulness still remain until this very day. I cant control myself from breaking down everytime my mind reminiscing the happy moment I had with him. I slept on his lap until the age of 7. He's so gentle and caring and he's a perfectionist. His handwriting is to nice. He plays instrumental. He recite Al-Quran very nicely.

Before he died, I never showed him how much I love him and I never had a chance to pay back all his sacrifices. I've never had a chance to celebrate his birthday or wish him Happy Father's Day just because its not our family's culture. We hardly show our love towards each other not until he passed away. Maybe from what had happened, we learned to appreciate more.

I never told anyone about this until recently when I told hubby about it. Now, I've learned that we have to appreciate people that we love while they're still alive. I want my mother get all the love that she needs and the appreciation, telling her that she meant a lot to me. I LOVE YOU MAK! I'm nothing without you... I still didnt post the poem that I wrote for her. Maybe I will post it together with the poem that I wrote for arwah Abah.

Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh Abah, Al-Fatihah...

And semoga Allah memanjangkan umur mak biar dapat aku balas segala pengorbanannya selama ini. InsyaAllah...

So here it goes. I bought a pair of new shoes from Sembonia, well its on sale, so I bought it last week on Wednesday. On Thursday not more than 2 hours I'm wearing it, the bottom part of the heel is missing making my shoes sounded irritatingly when I walk. Then the next day I asked hubby to fix it since they provided 2 spare of the bottom part. The next day, which is on Friday, the other one broken and I got hubby to fix it and again yesterday both of the bottom part broken! How irritating is that!!! I mean its a new shoes ok and its not the cheap charlie shoes that we bought at Jukebox!!! Its Sembonia and of course its on sale but it has the damn brand it cant be THAT bad!!! Erghhhhhhh!!! I'm so pissed!!

So this morning I asked this uncle to send it to cobbler, luckily this uncle can be kind enough to help, but of course I have to cover for his petrol, I pay him RM3. So now that CLEVER shoes price is up another RM7 which I'm not really willing to pay but I HAVE to. Nak claim dekat suamiku balik nanti. Well that RM7 can cover for 2 days lunch ok! With the hike of petrol price, I have to be more calculative.

Speaking of which, many people are complaining on that, but for me talk as much as you want, they will remain the price. Daripade membazir air liur complaining and pointing fingers to Pak Lah which obviously mendatangkan dosa-dosa mengutuk and mengumpat, lebih baik diam and think wisely on how to adjust our budget with this current cekik darah's price. And thats for me lah.

Ok 2 posts in a day - I have no life!

To Lyna, if you read this, I miss your.... u know what! ;ppp

Ta!

Yesterday after work we went straight to Jusco to settle on the new tv's matter. Well abah is buying a new tv for the house. After than went to pizza for early dinner. Lil'gem eat A LOT as in half bowl of the mushroom soup, half of the meatball and half of the bread stick. That can be considered as VERY good coz its very hard for her to eat. And she cant stay still even in like 30 seconds and I was penat gile nak layan die. But its ok coz she's been good in her appetite.

Met his friends Golok and the girlfriend Hani upstairs.

In the car, hubby told me something about Saturday night that really makes my heart feel like.... so damn heavy which I wont discuss about it here but yeah I really feel unhappy about that. But again, there's no one to blame so just forget about it, can I? I still can feel the heaviness right now though...

Went to sleep early last night and I woke up at 2a.m to make milk for Lil'Gem. I have funny dream last night but I cant really recall it right now.

Gotta start my work now, the documents that need to be filed are piling up!

Ta!

Yeah I've been craving for pizza since few weeks already and yesterday while sorting out the documents in the cabinet, I saw this Domino's pizza brochure and the sinful cheese just make my stomach singing even louder. As I go along I found another brochure and then another one and by that time I cannot tahan already. I decided to go to Jusco for lunch and eat that melty rich of sinfully cheese pizza BUT when I called hubby to ask his permission, he said we'll have dinner at pizza together. So there go my dream pizza, I ended up eating mihun sup at the cafe.

Unfortunately, hubby reached home at about 9:15pm last night coz Along played golf (they are carpooling) and here I am terbayang-bayangkan keenakan pizza tersebut.

**Edit**

I went to Jusco just now for the pizza, I asked my boss if she wants to join me since I'm going alon and she said YES! and ask me to DRIVE!!! Yeah my husband's SPORT VROOM VROOM CARR!! Can you believe it?? Dahla akak ni kalau bawak kete sometimes mati enjin and sometimes the car jerking for no specific reason (mainly because I'm such a bad driver). I was so nervous that I even warned her that I'm not good at driving and she said its ok not to worry. Just for your info she drives BMW 5-series ye. Ekekeekke.... She even has to pull or I can say slammed the door 3 times ok. And when the car keep on jerking, she said I should drive an auto car. She suggested to me to buy Viva or Myvi and finally she made up her mind and asked me to buy the new Proton Saga and she suggested me to buy the same color like her beamer. Boleh tak?? But all in all everything was fine, I got free lunch though!

After lunch we went to Jusco and we bought a pack of 2 Avent bottle, we shared coz its cheaper and they have 20% discount for all Avent items. I also bought a shirt+pant for Lil'gem also at a 50% discounted price. There are sale everywhere its so bad that I have very little to spend.

Hubby will stay in Kajang for 2 nights this weekend. I planned to stay at my mum's for a night but see la how. He told me he went to house haunting coz Along planned to move out. Sad ok, I'm so used to have them around and the house will be sooooo...quiet if the couple not at home. But yeah sooner or later, we all will have to move out to move on with our lives. tsk..tsk.....its so sad ok!

Last week Fifi was admitted, pity her and last night they are back home. Hope everything is fine. To Fida, hope that Fifi the flower tot is fine now.

I think thats all for now, later!